Sincerenity

So far, my posts have been about my weight loss journey, which is a huge deal to me and a gigantic part of my life right now.

In order to lose weight, I had to reverse engineer it. Why did I gain it in the first place? What caused it? How did I get here? Well, my weight gain was a result of my lifestly and my habits, so that’s what I’m changing.

So much more than just my body is changing. Here are 3 other things in my life that I’m changing that have nothing to do with weight loss – but are helping in my journey.

#1: My mental health. It’s no secret that being overweight comes with many costs. Many who have been overweight will understand. I am changing my mindset and improving my mental health. I’ve had a severe anxiety disorder for over 10 years… I never thought it would get better. But… it does. Not at once, not right away, but it’s such a gradual change. Through journaling, meditation, exercise, and more attentive listening to myself, I see so much improvement. I am not 100% better, but what’s important is that I see a difference. I’m not a therapist, but I have talked to several. If you need help, please seek it. Even if it’s from a trusted friend.

#2: My personal time. In a way, this kind of goes hand in hand with improving my mental health. I felt so drained and – at times, depressed – because I feel like all I do is work. To a degree, that is true. I work, come home, eat, sleep, go to work, and repeat. I really had no life outside of work for a really long time. I’ve tried to find hobbies that help fulfill me more and make my time outside of the office more fulfilling. I’ve started learning macrame, I love to decorate cakes, I hang out with friends more frequently, and I post on this blog. I also spend so, so much less time on social media. Now I believe social media is either bad or good, depending on how you look at it and how you use it. For me, it wasted my life away because I used it poorly. It was normal for me to spend 20+ hours a week on TikTok. That is a part time job! I now spend less than an hour a week on TikTok. I have found some amazing content on social media and have learned a lot, but the opposite is also true. I came to my own conclusion that it wasn’t for me, so I got rid of the apps on my phone and keep them only on my iPad. I still get on TikTok and Instagram occasionally, but definitely not as much as I used to. It freed up so much of my time.

#3: My environment. I’ve always considered the space around me to be a reflection of my mental state. Over the last couple months especially, I’ve made a great effort in ensuring the dishes are done if the sink is full, the bed is made, and my room is clean. My house is certainly not spotless, but I’ve noticed that every small effort matters. When my dishes are done and the kitchen is tidy, I’ve noticed I find it easier to cook meals and take the time to prepare a more fulfilling dish. When my bed is made, I notice a softer energy in my room that welcomes me home. When my room is clear of clutter on the floor, it’s so much easier to exercise and to want to be in here to journal.

There are so many more things I’m working on to better my life, I will certainly talk about them more. I know no effort is wasted. It’s not that I’m just trying to improve my body… I’m improving my life.